4th times the charm?

Yeah, I know that doesn't sound right, but maybe it'll hold true for me.

I'm on pregnancy #4. Currently due January 19th, 2014, which is 2 days after Eli's birthday.

I'll do an official update on Sunday when I hit 4 weeks - which is Mother's Day.

I'm terrified, excited, anxious and numb all at the same time. Is that even possible?