Monday, December 10, 2012

Ultrasound #2...

Was a success!! It was such a nerve wracking time for me. Thankfully this is my last pregnancy because the anxiety I feel during the 1st trimester is horrible. Yes, I know anything can go wrong at any time, but when you have experience a loss, an unknown loss at that, it just doesn't get easier.

Last night before I was going to attempt to go to bed, I wiped some pink spotting when I went to the bathroom. My heart sank. I knew today wasn't going to be good. Thankfully it didn't come back at all between last night and this morning, but it didn't make me any less worried. I ended up in bed at midnight and tossed and turned and coughed myself awake multiple times. I think around 3 I finally fell asleep which meant a whopping 2 hours of sleep. The morning was hectic getting Geo up and off to work, plus getting Eli ready to go stay with my dad. The whole drive I just prepped myself. One minute I was prepping for the worst, then the next I was telling myself that it's be okay. I got there, went inside and waited. I watched TV, but couldn't really tell you what I saw. She called me back, got my prepped and I started to shake as I laid there. The tech asked me if I was okay and I just told her that this is deja vu to my first pregnancy and I was just terrified it was going to end the same way. She told me she was going to get pictures for the Dr., but then she'd let me see the screen when she was done. The ultrasound got underway and the first thing she said was "The baby is just fine in there." Immediately I just sighed this huge sigh of relief and allowed myself to relax and be happy. Everything is right on track for where it should be and again, "Today I am ABSOLUTELY pregnant and I love this baby!"

Here is little Padawan - 9 weeks, 5 days.


Wednesday, December 5, 2012

Weeks 8 and 9

I know I'm late, but my mind is getting the best of me. I wasn't this anxious with Eli, and I think this time around I am because it's within the same time frame of my first that I lost. We wouldn't find out for about 2 more weeks, but this is about the time when my last pregnancy ended. I go Monday for an ultrasound so I'm just hoping and praying that this pregnancy won't end like my first. Poor Eli is sick and the Christmas hustle and bustle is keeping my mind busy, but when I sit down with time on my hands, I start to think. But, never fear - here is my 8 and 9 week check in!

How big is baby:

"Now she weighs in (yay!) at about .04 ounces and measures about .63 inches.
 This week, she's growing about a milimeter each day."
" We are now a fetues! She's gaining steam! At 9 weeks, your fetus measures around 
.9 inches and weighs about .07 ounces."
How far along?: 9 weeks! 3 to go until 2nd trimester!

Maternity clothes?: I've been living in them.

Movement:  Not that I can feel

Stretch marks?: The ones from Eli are fading! Yay!

Sleep?: Still pretty awesome!

Symptoms?: Still tired. I've been getting RLP (round ligament pain) as well. Ouch! And the gas bubbles don't feel all that great either.

Food cravings: Eh.. I have a love/hate relationship with food.

Belly button in or out?: Innie still.I hope it doesn't pop out this time.

What I miss:  A good glass of wine.

What I'm looking forward to:  Monday for the ultrasound.

Milestone: We'll get to one Monday so long as the ultrasound is good.

Belly Pic(s):

Monday, November 26, 2012

7 weeks! Turkey Day edition

With all the craziness of the Thanksgiving holiday, I'm a little late here. But, I got some amazing deals in my Black Friday shopping craziness so it was worth it!

How big is baby?:
 "Your .51-inch embryo doesn't exactly tip the scales just yet but she's developing like crazy. 
She's already doubled in size since last week."

How far along?: 7 weeks! Yay!

Maternity clothes?: Still in the jeans! I live in my yoga pants too.

Movement: Not yet.

Stretch marks?: Just the ones left over from last time.

Sleep?: Still pretty awesome!

Symptoms?: Tired, tired and tired! The heartburn is coming back too.

Food cravings: I had one today! Grilled cheese.. Yum!!

Belly button in or out?: Innie

What I miss:  My energy and nice hair.

What I'm looking forward to:  The end of the 1st trimester!

Milestone: Getting through Black Friday shopping intact!

Belly Pic: This is from Thanksgiving, which is why it's a day late!

Thursday, November 15, 2012

We have a heartbeat!

I am so excited!! I know a HB doesn't mean that things still can't go wrong, but at least for today, I'm happily pregnant. We got to the office right at 730 and sat and waited. And waited. And waited some more. Obviously the u/s tech was running late because I didn't even get back until almost 8. Anyway, I got undressed and sat and waited. I was shaking I was so nervous. I don't think I'll ever be able to get over my anxiety when I go for ultrasounds. So, the tech came in, someone new this time, and explained how this would work. In my head I'm screaming "I've done this already, just get on with it!!!", but I was polite and kept my mouth shut. She informed me that the earliest she's ever seen a HB on this machine was 5w6d. Well, I'm happy to announce I beat her record!!!

 
(The little speck in the red circle is Baby Padawan!)

Little Padawan was measuring  5w5d and had a HB of 104! I was a little nervous at first since I know 104 is low, but she assured me that it's perfectly normal since HB probably started beating within the last 24 hours so it was acceptable. *huge sigh of relief*  I go again on 12/10 for another ultrasound, so hopefully *crosses fingers* everything will still be good and we can announce this pregnancy around Christmas!!

Today I am ABSOLUTELY pregnant and I LOVE my baby!!

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

6 weeks!

Tomorrow at 730 am, I have my first ultrasound. I'm feeling so conflicted. I'm excited and terrified all at the same time. Even though my pregnancy with Eli was smooth sailing, the terrifying feeling of a possible miscarriage never goes away. I'll be back tomorrow to update on how it goes.

How big is baby?:

 "The average embryo at week 6 is about .25 inches and will double in size again next week. Wow!"


How far along?: 6 weeks! Half way through the 1st trimester!

Maternity clothes?: Still in the jeans.

Movement: Not even close.

Stretch marks?: Just the ones left over from last time.

Sleep?: Is a-mazing. I can't believe how tired I am. Was it this way with Eli?

Symptoms?: Sleepy, nauseous after I eat.

Food cravings: Still none. Nothing sounds good.. :-(

Belly button in or out?: Innie

What I miss:  My energy!

What I'm looking forward to: My ultrasound tomorrow.

Milestone: Making it half way through the 1st trimester!

Belly Pic:

Wednesday, November 7, 2012

5 weeks!

It seems like I was just doing my 4 week check in. Guess time flies when your due date gets moved forward!

How big is baby?: An appleseed!

"Your embryo is now measurable -- though at week five, it's a wee .13 inches -- and she's gearing up for much more growth. In fact, in the next week, she'll almost double in size. Grow baby grow!"

How far along?: 5 weeks.

Maternity clothes?: The jeans are out. I can still wear certain non-maternity jeans but they are not as comfy.

Movement: Just my gassy kicks! Lol.

Stretch marks?: Just the ones left over from last time.

Sleep?: Is good when it's here. I can't seem to unwind at night.

Symptoms?: Sleepy. Crampy again. My stomach is always icky.

Food cravings: None. Nothing sounds appealing which sucks when I know I have to eat. Blech.

Belly button in or out?: Innie

What I miss: Enjoying food!

What I'm looking forward to: Shopping on Saturday. Hoping to score some cheap summer maternity clothes.

Milestone: Making it to 5 weeks.

Bump Pic:

Monday, November 5, 2012

First Baby Dr. Appointment!

First off, I just have to announce we've nicked named this LO! Since Eli was Spock (To "Live long and Prospure") and a Star Trek reference, we've decided to go with a Star Wars reference this time. We chose Padawan! We chose this because a Padawan is a jedi in training and this LO is currently a baby in training! 

Today I had my first appointment with my OB. I got weighed, peed in a cup, got my blood pressure checked. The nurse talked to me and declared a due date of July 10th. I'm going to do my check in's based on that date, but I know it will probably change when I get my first ultrasound. Then my Dr. came in and had the biggest smile on her face. Her first words were "I'm so happy to see you here!! I love it when my nice patients come back with good news!" This made me smile. I had a rough start with my OB with my first pregnancy and I'm glad we've gotten to this point. I voiced some questions I had and we chatted for a bit. I got my blood work script and my papers of Do's and Don'ts during pregnancy and I was on my way. Pretty much what I was expecting for a first appointment. I'm too early to see anything on an ultrasound so I'm going back on the 15th. With the due date of the 10th, that will put me at 6w 1d. Still a little early but we should be able to see something. Then it was off for the dreaded blood work. Ugh. I knew they'd take a zillion, well only 5, vials of blood from me and I can't stand getting my blood drawn. It's not even the losing of the blood. It's the feeling of the needle in my arm. And to top it off, it moved every time she switched the vials! I'm getting nauseous just thinking about it. The lady was really nice and put me in the reclining chair and gave me some OJ to sip on. Thankfully this is the last time they'll take this much from me. Be back in a few days with my 5 week check in!

Sunday, November 4, 2012

4 Weeks

Here we are, 4 weeks! Only 8 to go until the 2nd trimester. It still seems surreal to be pregnant again. I took at test today, at 16DPO, and the test line was darker than the control line! I go for my first appointment tomorrow so I'll be updating again on how it goes.


"At 4 weeks, your baby, now known as a blastocyst, is practically microscopic -- a teeny ball of cells. She's busy settling into her new home (your uterus), prepping for all the crucial development she'll be doing over the next six weeks.  "





How far along?: 4 weeks! (Well, 4w2d)

Maternity clothes?: This bloat is killing me. The jeans may be coming out soon.

Movement: Way too early.

Stretch marks?: Just the ones left over from last time.

Sleep?: Is great. I can't kick this tiredness.

Symptoms?: Still sleepy. My boobs have been hurting too.

Food cravings: None yet.

Belly button in or out?: Innie

What I miss: Energy

What I'm looking forward to: My appointment tomorrow! Can't believe it's almost here.

Milestone: My test today! I love seeing the test line darker than the control.

Bump Pic:





Ick! I didn't realize how dirty the mirror was! Guess I need to go clean it. I'll be back tomorrow to update on my appointment!

Monday, October 29, 2012

What did we get ourselves into?




Here we go again!

I just found out yesterday that I'm pregnant with #2! As of right now, I'm 3w3d (I found out at 9dpo) and due July 12th. I'm really hoping this July baby sticks! If so, this LO and Eli will be 18 months apart. My first appointment is Monday. I'm so torn between being excited, nervous and anxious all at the same time! Where did I get it in my brain that I could handle 2 little ones? Will Eli enjoy having a baby brother or sister? Where did I get it in my brain that I could handle 2 little ones?! I just hope that baby #2 is just as amazing as Eli. If so, I should be able to stay sane. Here's my first check in with baby #2!

How big is baby?
 
Poppy Seed!

How far along?: 3 weeks, 3 days

Maternity clothes?: Not yet

Movement: Way too early!

Stretch marks?: Just the ones left over from last time.

Sleep?:  Is beautiful. I've been taking naps when Eli naps.

Symptoms?: Just sleepy and a little crampy.

Food cravings: None yet.

Belly button in or out?: Innie

What I miss: I'd say sleep but I haven't slept well since my last pregnancy!

What I'm looking forward to: My appointment on Monday.

Milestone: Getting pregnant again!

Bump Pic, or left over baby pooch:

Monday, May 7, 2012

He's here! Eli's Birth Story

This picture was taken the day I went into labor. Needless to say, a lot has happened since then! Let's start with me going into labor 3 weeks early.

On Monday the 16th, I had a Dr's appointment that included an u/s, a NST and my first internal exam. Geo was with me and it was my longest appointment yet. They started with the u/s. Everything looked good, but part of my u/s was that the tech had to watch for Eli to practice breathing. It's a completely random act and Eli decided to be stubborn. After a good 20 minutes of waiting, we decided that he wasn't going to "breathe", so off to the NST it was. 15 minutes later everything was looking good then it was time to get checked. I was only about a fingertip dilated and pretty much had zero progression. My Dr joked as she did the internal that "Maybe this will get things started for you." Little did she know that within 3 hours I was going to be admitted. After my Dr's appointment Geo and I headed to the mall to get some running around done. As we walked around Home Depot, I was on the phone with my mom and told her that "Pretty much between now and the next month, he'll be here." But, realistically we thought we had at least another week since I had an appointment then where I was going to discuss being induced with my high risk Dr.  We hit a couple more stores and then headed to the food court for lunch. We were sitting in front of the pizza place and it happened. We were just getting ready to go get our hair cut (and for all those who know, I was looking forward to that hair cut!) and my water broke. Right there in the food court. Thankfully I got my meal in before my water broke because that would be the last thing I ate for the next 24 hours. We headed home because I thought I had just peed myself since I gushed fluid, then nothing else happened.  I made it in the house before another gush occurred and then it didn't stop this time. As I started to panic, I called my mom (not even 2 hours after our last phone call) and she answered with "You can't be going into labor already.." Well, yes I was! I changed, grabbed my hospital bag (Thank God I had it ready!) and car seat and we went to the hospital. On the way we called Geo's parents and told them we were headed in, but not to leave yet since we weren't sure if I was going to be admitted. We headed into L&D where they took me to a room and checked to make sure that what I was leaking was really amniotic fluid. The first time she tested me, the strip came back negative, but we were both confused since something was seriously going on down there... She tested a 2nd time and the strip came back black and by 520 I was all admitted. My bags were brought in, Geo's parents were getting ready to leave and we weren't leaving the hospital with a baby!

Over night nothing excited happened at all. My dad stopped in on his way to work to wish me luck and give me a hug. I was upset that he wasn't going to be there for Eli's birth but, this was so sudden he couldn't make arrangements. I stayed about 2cm dilated but was making no natural progression on my own. Around 6am on the 17th, they started the pitocin. For the first few hours I still wasn't progressing any further than 2cm but I was starting to feel the contractions more. By then my mom, Kristine, Nina and Austin had come up to see me and keep me company. Around 4cm the contractions were consistent and strong and I opted first for the IV meds to help with pain management. The started me on nubain which worked great, but Eli didn't respond to it well in the womb. Every time I would contract, his heart rate would drop. Nothing too serious, but they monitored me closer and only gave me the one dose. By 5cm and a few hours later, I was asking for the epidural. At first they wouldn't give it to me because of how Eli reacted to the nubain, but finally, my Dr. cleared me and it was epidural time. By the time the anesthesiologist got there, the contractions were taking my breath away. They sat me up and got me all positioned and attempted to get the needle in SIX, yes SIX, times before they were successful. At that point, I didn't know which was worse, the contractions or the needle being stuck in my back. My spine curves slightly and apparently that throws everything off. My labor nurse was SO amazing during this time. She held me still, breathed through my contractions with me and comforted me the best she could. FINALLY they got the needle in and I laid back on the bed, involuntarily pushing through the contractions. Breathing through them at this point had gone out the window and I was ready to push. My nurse was getting the epidural medicine all hooked up to my line and decided to check me one more time before administering the medicine. Well, within the half hour it took to get the needle in me I had gone from 5cm to a full 10cm and was ready to push. So after getting stuck 6 times, I never got the benefits of the medicine and was doing this natural. She went in the hall, grabbed George, told everyone else that I was getting ready to push and called my Dr away from her lunch.  They broke the bed down, told George how to hold my legs and I was pushing. As weird as it sounds, pushing felt great. It was so hard to NOT push through the contractions that when I got the green light to actually push, I wasn't stopping!  My Dr showed up about 10 minutes later and from start to finish I pushed for 20 minutes and Eli was here. He weighed in a 5lbs 4oz, was 18 inches long and perfectly healthy for being small and 3 weeks early.


Saturday, January 14, 2012

Weeks 33 - 36

So much has been going on recently! Here's a collective update to week 36!

How big is baby?
"He's getting closer and closer to being able to breathe on his own. His skin is getting smooth and soft and his gums are rigid. His liver and kidneys are in working order. Circulation and immune systems are basically good to go, too."

How far along?: 36 weeks - 4 to go! Ahh!!

Maternity clothes?: Are aaammmaazziiinngg.. I may never go back to regular clothes!

Movement: Has started to hurt. He's so squished in there that it's actually painful sometimes when he stretches.

Stretch marks?: Oh yeah - they came out of no where in the past week or so. Booo..

Sleep?: Sucks. I hurt when I lay on my side for too long, I miss sleeping on my back and stomach and every time I move I wake up and have to pee.

Symptoms?: Heartburn is still a bi*ch, Braxton Hicks contractions hurt and I'm sore all over. I'm d.o.n.e!

Food cravings: No big cravings.. I've never really had any this pregnancy.

What I miss: Good sleep and wine!

What I'm looking forward to: This up coming week to be over - it's my last at work!

Milestone: Weekly appointments, getting everything ready for Eli and a possible eviction date!

Bump pics: